Please post Info/Stories on Losses

[Twintastic]

I know this is one of the saddest subjects but if you have a story to tell, please do so. It will inspire someone, I guarantee it. :hug

[SnowBirdie]

yes, it will. sometimes just reading that you aren't alone, or that you aren't going crazy with all the feelings and thoughts going through your head can make a huge difference on a long, sad, night.

pm me if you don't want your name attached and i will be happy to withhold it, since anything you feel comfortable sharing might help someone (yourself too), even if it is brief and not a complete story. how you get through the day, or how you feel after whatever time has elapsed since your loss could help someone, too. :hugs

[Twintastic]

You are more than welcome to pm me as well. We can definitely withhold your name if you like. :hug

[Master~Debator]

My twins are actually triplet survivors and I had a miscarriage a year after their birth as well.

I haven't yet even gotten up the nerve to request access to Lost and Found (dunno if it's open to the loss through MC) but this is something that I would like to write about.

Just give me some time and I will.

[Twintastic]

Anne :hug I appreciate you being willing to share with us. It would mean so much to us and to others that have experienced a loss. Whenever you are ready, just let us know.

I am sure you would be welcome in the Lost and Found. A loss is a loss. :hug You are a very special woman.

[Moonie]

I will write up my experience and pm it to you. Give me a few days.

[Twintastic]

Thanks Moonie!! :hug

[Lola Starr]

I have an experience with this, but not twin pregnancy loss. I don't know if you will want that, but I am very willing to help ANYONE who is experiencing a pregnancy loss. (I lost my first pregnancy at 22 weeks)

[Pop Tart]

I had 2, possibly 3 miscarriages before the twins if you want those stories, too.

[Free Bird]

Anne, I had no idea. My girls are triplet survivors too.
I too ahve suffered miscarriages in the past, fortunately for me they were very early on but it was heartbreaking non the less. My sis lost her first baby at 24 weeks due to German Measles. I can't even begin to imagine the heart ache.

I kinda touched on my losses with Jeff in my "life with twins" story.

[Moonie]

My loss

We found out I was pregnant at 10 dpo. I took a test just b/c I was obsessed with poas. It came up positive almost immediately. I was so excited. My husband and I just held each other and cried. It was a Tuesday. I remember going to the bowling alley for DH bowling tournament and telling everyone. That Friday, I woke up and I was bleeding. I freaked out. I called off work, and off to the ER we went. When I got there, they did a beta blood test, and it came back at 92. The ER doc came in and told me I was not going to carry the baby, to go home and rest. I was devastated. I went home and put myself on bed rest. I did not move. I made a Dr. appointment, and they agreed to see me. I went in and they ran some more betas. My beta went from 92 to 305 in 48 hours. I started to think maybe things would be okay after all. The next test, 48 hours later, came back as 2819. WOW, it had way more than doubled. I knew things had turned around. I kept myself on bed rest. I had an ultrasound at 6 weeks. I went in, and we saw one large sac and one small sac. They told me that the bleeding I had been having was sac 2 and it would be gone at the next ultrasound. I went home with many mixed emotions. I had a healthy baby, but I was loosing one too. My next ultrasound was a week later. I went in, and immediately saw one healthy heartbeat. I sadly asked them if the other was gone. The ultrasound tech looked at me and said, what do you mean, there are 3 heartbeats here. WTH. I went from 2 to 1 to 3. Talk about a rush of emotions. The Dr. came in and said rarely, this will happen and the 3ed sac was slow to develop, and it was prob very small and that is why we missed it. This was 7 weeks. The Dr. told me I was okay to go back to work. I worked in the back office at a Dr. office. I was very busy there, and did not feel comfortable doing it, so my boss put me in the front office checking people in. I went back at 9 weeks, the ultrasound was perfect. Sac c was still smaller, but we had 3 heartbeats. The one thing I regret is that I did not get a copy of that ultrasound. It was just a quick peak to confirm things were going okay. The next week I new something was wrong. I called the Dr. and they told me to just take it easy. This was going to be a very up and down pregnancy. On October 22, I found out that baby c had stopped developing. I was 11 weeks. Still to this day, I do not understand it. I had seen the heartbeat. I had done everything I was supposed to do. Why us. In my heart, I feel that baby c was a girl. I have no proof of that, other than mommy's instinct. My daughter did not know about baby c, yet when I delivered the boys, she asked the Dr. where her little sister was. He got down to her level and told her mommy had 2 boys. She told him no, she has a sissy too, and she is in heaven now. That kind of confirms for me that baby c was a sister. We call her Gracie. I think of her often. I will never understand why she was taken from us, and even though she never made it here to see us, she holds such a special place in my heart. She has her own ornament on the tree. On her angel date, we send up a pink balloon to heaven. My mothers ring, it has 4 butterflies. Each has the birthstone of myself and the kids, but it is butterflies to honor Gracie. Depending on who I am talking to, I refer to the boys as surviving triplets. Some people though, they just do not get it. Too often I get the comment "just think, it could have been triplets" That rips my heart out. But, for as long as we live, people will not think before they speak. We have to just take things in stride, and one day, we will all be together again.

[SnowBirdie]

oh, thanks for sharing your story with us, moonie, and it is awful people say things like that. :hugs i am glad you have your sweet boys, and i wish your little angel were here with you too. we appreciate so much you sharing with us, and i know it will give comfort to someone else who is hurting. :hugs

anne, please share anything you feel you can, and it may help you too....tarty, lola, lissette, and anyone else who has experienced loss, please share if you are ready. you will help someone else, and most likely yourself also. in the middle of a night sometimes reading you aren't the only one feeling a certain way can make a huge difference. you ladies are very special, and we appreciate your input very much!!!! :hugs